Examining Beliefs
July 1, 2010
Kara (left) attends Newberg Friends and is a sophomore at George Fox University.
As I sit here contemplating my faith, I grow a bit discouraged by my lack of answers. Then I am reminded that faith is a journey, which is great because that means I don’t have to have any answers; I just have to be seeking the truth.
For the past two years, the closest person in my life was a steadfast atheist. On top of that, he was a smart atheist. This meant he asked hard questions for which I never had good enough answers, and he came up with steady arguments that made me feel like I knew nothing. It was easy to start losing faith in, well, “faith.” One day he told me that if I wanted to have a chance of making my beliefs credible, I needed to think for myself and not just use the answers that I’d been taught all of my life. Thus began one of the hardest endeavors I have ever taken on. I had no idea how to go about finding answers.
Why do I believe in God? The first reason I came up with was something like: “Because I know it’s true! It just makes sense!” Needless to say, I was not happy with this response. How do I know it’s true? How do I even begin to find evidence of its truth? I don’t necessarily see God acting on a day-to-day basis, but there have been times I’ve noticed his handiwork. It’s hard not to believe in something when you can find no explanation for the results it creates.
So here’s what I’ve got so far: I believe in God because I don’t know how else the intricacy of creation would be able to exist, how existence would be able to exist, without him. I have also had experiences in my life in which I’ve either felt God’s presence or seen the product of his involvement. And through that presence I have grown to know a God who is loving beyond all belief. I always feel as though he is sitting right next to me, even when there is nothing evident to make me feel that way, and I see his love in the goodness that exists in those around me. It’s not much, but it’s something I can claim as my own. I still have a lot of “churchy” answers, but I am working to develop and broaden them into something genuine to me and not just recited; I am trying to make my religion into a relationship.
Despite my limited understanding of an infinitely big God, I have a wonderful experience to share: continuous undeserved love. Rather than sharing my beliefs through the Sunday school answers ingrained in me from the time I was born, I can share God by spreading the love he shows me. It worked for Jesus, didn’t it? My system of beliefs center entirely on this God guy who just so happens to BE love, so it is only logical that SHOWING love would display the God I’ve grown to trust. It’s not easy, and people don’t necessarily notice every time I give them grace, but I feel like it truly affects my interactions with others on some level. We’ve all been called to love our neighbor, and God has made one pretty big neighborhood for us to run around in. Even when we don’t have a specific calling placed on our hearts by the Spirit, we are always called to love in humility. It is a simple display of faith that requires constant work, and I’ve discovered it is worth the effort.
Questions to continue the conversation:
- How are you exploring and journeying in your faith?
- What concrete “answers” do you have to share with other about the reality you experience?



Colin Saxton, general superintendent for NWYM, attends North Valley, and just graduated one daughter from college and one from high school. His son is a junior.
All his lower teeth on that side have fallen out. Today he went to the little pukesmas (hospital) in Lamno and in previous months he has visited many other clinics in Northern Sumatra. No one has given him any hope. It has become difficult for him to eat. Often people are afraid of him. Even his three children sometimes avoid him. He no longer has the strength to farm.”



“Empty Bowls” event draws 800 and sells more than 1,000 bowls through volunteer efforts of students, employees and guest professional artists
filled with soup and sold for $12 each at the April dinner, with all proceeds going toward the 
After 55 years in ministry, which included pastoring a church in California, serving as district superintendent in two of our Areas, and pastoring seven of our churches (Newberg, Rosedale, Portland First, Quincy, Eugene, Greenleaf, and Marion), Don and Nancy have settled into a quieter life at 
this summer, providing opportunity to build relationships with their neighbors while meeting very real needs for nutritious food. Those we are aware of include:
youth spiritually and stretch them outside of their comfort zones. Topics of discussion included confronting culture, spiritual gifts, dialoguing with Christ, vocation vs. occupation, and transitioning into their next phase of life. The weekend was highlighted by a high ropes challenge course and a three-hour solo time in the woods. A close community formed among the youth as they journeyed together, asking hard questions and encouraging one another.


